Thursday, June 16, 2011

PU


                  Pixies, also known as faeries, sprites, etc, have more occupations than usually told. They can be doctors, engineers, scientists- any career that is available on Earth is equally required on their planet. However, the one most envied job of all the fairy land is the job of a wish-caster. Being a wish-caster is a laborious job to start, but the pay and the hours are excellent. There is no job that has  better benefits and pay. Any fairy parent who thinks their child is worth half their dust will send their child to a secondary education school that focuses on the art and etiquette of being a wish-caster. Few realize how competitive their world is, and how much pressure there is to excel. It's a dream job, but where young fairies end up with it depends on their skill.



Roy and Keitha from my story, PU. It's what I write when I don't feel like writing something dark and mysterious and deep ( Like Ripper). This is all fluff and cute stuff. And I love it for that.

Friday, June 10, 2011

One of Three

I like to draw!

Meet Farren. He's pretty rad.




I really have nothing else to report.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Six of My Favorite Things

So recently, I've been getting into British television. This is odd for me, because, well, before this, I didn't really watch tv at all. However- there are these three shows that have captured my soul- and it's for a reason that I would have never realized had I not watched these programs. I had been missing out on something this significant my whole life!

I MEAN JUST LOOK AT THEM CHEEKBONES. DAAAAAAAAAAAAAANG.

hahaha, seriously though. I started watching Merlin this weekend, and half of the time I was watching it, I was just staring at that guy's FACE. All of them have such INTERESTING faces! WITH CHEEKBONES. HAVE I MENTIONED CHEEKBONES? DEAR GOODNESS THE CHEEKBONES.

I cannot help but draw! I love these interesting faces so! They're...well. Interesting!

This was my first time drawing Merlin though, so he looks a little odd. More cartoony than the rest of them. Oh well! I'll get better!

(Sudden realization. The Doctor is pretty much the combination of these other two guys. He's extremely clever and magical! Merlin + Sherlock = DOCTOR! <3 )

Monday, May 9, 2011

The Crew

So I did this drawing today!

For the summer, my friends and I have decided to do a writing marathon of sorts. We're calling it SUMO (SUmmer Months' Opus....because we're that cool) and it's a modification/easier version of NaNoWriMo.  And I am going to be writing this thing! I'm pretty excited to have another go at this, because since I first wrote it, quite a bit has changed. The biggest part is probably the cast. The first time, only three of these guys were really in it. Panner was in a scene. Or two. Jon was talked about- but his role has changed a LOT since then. And Laurel. Well. She actually WAS in the first go, but only very briefly in one scene. In fact, I was probably the only one to take notice to her. If we want to REALLY go into details- Curtis is the only one who wasn't in the first go at all. But honestly, if we look into it as actual character wise, the only ones who have stayed the same are Aaron and Day- and even THEY have changed a bit. I'm pretty sure this is going to be writing a whole new book in some respects. In other respects, not so much. Buuuut....Well. It'll be fun. New twists, new plot lines,  and hopefully a whole lot more creepiness.

Might I just say- our writing marathon starts May 16th. And I am rather excited for this!

( Side note: I LOVE Laurel. I expect for her to be popping up a lot in the rewrite )

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Profile Pic!

So today I went about with shading practice. This is what I came up with




Honestly- I think this looks like a very creepy version of the facebook default profile picture. Seriously.

I think my favorite thing about this- there are no lines and you can still tell where the nose is. HA.

Next, I need to work on color. Seriously. what was I thinking with that background. *facepalm*

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Rewind

 Emily likes to write, but hardly ever gets to do it.

I blame school for this. School is lame.
_____
The park was as it always was. Calm. It was slightly overcast, and there were few people there. One person walked by, not really paying attention to the woman and her son. It was strange- after everything that had happened in the past four years, this is one of the few places that still felt like the calm days in the past. She could just come here and forget everything bad that was happening.
Right after reaching the top of a hill, their goal had come into sight- the play ground. Her son squirmed in her hands, trying to break free of her grip. She couldn’t resist those brilliant green eyes, watching them gleam from excitement. Finally, she gave in, watching his dash across the grass to the playground in mere seconds.
She sat down at her usual park bench, watching her young son run up to a friend of his. Within seconds, they were climbing all over the playground.
“Cute, aren’t they?” A voice said from the other side of the table. Erica look at him, startled that anyone had come up and sat beside her without her noticing.
“Yes, they are” Erica felt obliged to respond, she didn’t really want to be talking to this young man. If she were a little bit older, he could have been her son- it was just a little awkward with him starting a conversation out of no where. 
“I’m surprised that people are still bringing kids to public parks these days- with, you know.” He continued on awkwardly, “Everything that has been going on.”
“This is one of the safest neighborhoods in the whole state. Nothing has occurred here since the murders began.” The young man nodded, “Also- see all these mothers around the park?” Erica continued, “None of these mother lions will allow anyone to get to her cubs.” The young man chuckled quietly to himself.
“Which one is yours?” He asked. Erica pointed him out, a little boy of about eight playing with another blond boy.
“That’s him, he’s a complete angel.” The young man smiled.
“My girlfriend things we should have one of ‘em, but I’m not so sure about it.” She was coming to like this young man. He seemed honest enough.
“How old are you?”
“ I’m only 20.”
“Oh- wait a little, dear.” Erica responded, shaking her head, “Children are wonderful, but you can’t get rid of them once you have them. Spend a year or two with your girlfriend- maybe get married, enjoy your time together. You’ll be thanking me later for it.”
“You sure?” He questioned.
“Most definitely.” Surely this girl friend of his was very proud of her catch- he was handsome and sensitive. In a few years, he’ll be a perfect husband and father.
“Well- you’re a parent already. I’m sure you did all of this perfectly.”
“Oh boy, I have made plenty of mistakes in youth. Trust me. And don’t do what I did.”
“Like what?” The curious young man asked. She laughed
“Sorry- only one other person knows of these, and that person holds the secret just as strongly as I do.”
“Oh please,” the young man scoffed, “Devon wasn’t the only person to know.”
You know that feeling when all of a sudden the world comes crashing down around you? The feeling that everything you once knew to be pleasant and charming turns out to be the cause of your destruction. Erica felt that, and so much more. There was something horribly wrong here.
“How did you know that?” Erica was tense, cautious. Clearly she wasn’t talking to a young confused man that she thought she was. “How did you know about Devon?” He simply smiled.
“Your son, Mrs. Wendell,” he spat out her name, “is Aaron, correct?” These names- how did he know these names? She never told him- there was no reason for him to know. Unless….unless.
“You’re Devon’s son- aren’t you.” Erica stated. It wasn’t a question- that’s the only way he could know.
“So is he.” Erica looked over to her son, watching him slide down the slide without much of a care. The young man merely smiled back.
“What do you want?” She asked, fear creeping down her spine. “I haven’t talked with Devon for eight years. There is nothing between us now.”
“Nothing except him” The young man nodded in the boy’s direction.
“What do you want with me?”
“I want nothing with you.” The young man replied. He pulled out a small knife, and started etching something into the wooden table.
He fell into silence, ignoring her and the rest of life. Erica watched as his marks on the table formed into letters
Aaron, Aaron
“What are you writing?” Erica asked upon seeing her son’s name in the wood. The young man simply ignored her.
Come out to play
Look and see where your mommy lay
“Stop it.” Erica commanded him. He didn’t even look up, he just smiled to himself in her cries of protest.
What once was lost, now is found
But you’ll never find what’s underground
“What is this? What are you doing?” Fear had well crept into her voice by now, one might be able to classify it as terror now.
“Oh relax, will you?” The young man barked back. “It’s just a letter.” The young man looked back to the playground, “A letter that won’t be received for a long time now…” he trailed off, just watching.
“You need to leave now, or I will call the cops.”
The young man laughed, “What? What have I done? Pardon me, miss, but I don’t think the cops are too concerned with vandalism these days with a serial killer on the loose.”
“Nevertheless, I will call them” The young man raised his hands in surrender.
“Fine- I’ll go”
He got up, starting to walk away, which Erica was more than happy to see him leave.
“Mommy?” Her little boy came up to her, pulling at her skirt. “Who’s that? A friend?”
The man turned, coming down to the eye level of the boy. Erica quickly gripped onto her son’s arm, trying to keep him away.
“Yes, Aaron” He said, “I’m a friend. Would you like to be my friend?”
Aaron looked to his mom and back to the man, “Mommy said that I shouldn’t talk to strangers.”
“And you shouldn’t. But I’m no stranger, aren’t I, Erica?” He looked up to the woman kindly. Aaron seemed to understand that blatant lie as truth.
“Do you want to play?” His eyes shone excitedly, “I like to be the hero- you can be the bad guy!” He held up his two action figures to the stranger, encouraging him to take the villain.
The young man laughed, “Sorry kid, I can’t play now. I’m a little busy.” Aaron looked away, trying to hide his disappointment as well as an eight year old could. “But” the man continued, “I’ll be back. You just keep on looking for me.”
Aaron seemed satisfied with this, but Erica just held on to him all the tighter.
“Ma’am” the young man nodded to her, his snake-like smile spread across his face, “You’ll be seeing me real soon”
Erica didn’t let go or stare away until she heard a little voice
“Mommy- what’s wrong?” Erica blinked, as if waking up.
“Sorry” She let go “Nothing is wrong sweetie. I’m fine.”

Aaron never went to that park again.

Friday, April 22, 2011

...Are real

I'll stop posting Who related stuff soon! Honest! (I actually DO have a life outside of Doctor Who, believe it or not!) But! I find this so interesting!!! I couldn't resist!

Yay! Best six second trailer of all times!

I found this preview at 3am, so that might contribute to some of this- BUT I FIND THIS SO FREAKING SCARY RIGHT NOW.

....And there is NOTHING in this video!!! How the HECK is this scary? Moffat- I am going to find you, take your brain apart, and find out how you and all of your minions do this. How can you freak out whovians with a video in which there is nothing in it?!?

Or is there? ......dlkgj;glkjdgoiossdf;kgs!!!!!!!!!

We're sorry, the Emily's brain has malfunctioned. No longer able to think coherently. Please come back later and try again.

Monday, April 18, 2011

Oh Advirtisements

Funny thing I came across on youtube today



Doctor Who video that is essentially an ad. A Doctor Who ad ON the video. A Doctor Who ad to the side. And also to the side- Doctor Who related videos.

Over kill much?...Not that I mind at all

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Best Conversation EVER

[10:06:00 PM] Dove says: sdfgh
[10:06:06 PM] ladyem42 says: a;lksdj?
[10:06:22 PM] SteenaJack says: ello?
[10:06:22 PM] SteenaJack says: O.O
[10:06:38 PM] SteenaJack says: XD!
[10:06:44 PM] Dove says: glnnnl!!! :D
[10:06:46 PM] ladyem42 says: klasdj.
[10:06:53 PM] ladyem42 says: asdslkjalkdfjalkdjflkjfkj! dflkgj?
[10:07:13 PM] Dove says: DFGHJKHJFGDCVBNKMKHJGFYUYGHJK;JHGFVHJBftdyughujikllllllllhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhGBfdrftygjnbvhbkjn
[10:07:14 PM] Dove says: fcgvhbjfhg
[10:07:17 PM] SteenaJack says: wth?
[10:07:18 PM] Dove says: bh
[10:07:19 PM] SteenaJack says: O_o
[10:07:26 PM] ladyem42 says: fkdlls.
[10:07:46 PM] Dove says: fkdlls....*shakes head @ steen-steen*
[10:07:59 PM] ladyem42 says: fkdlls, asdlkjf.
[10:08:06 PM] SteenaJack says: I fail.
[10:08:08 PM] SteenaJack says: v.v
[10:08:09 PM] ladyem42 says: ja
[10:08:13 PM] Dove says: hahaha
[10:08:25 PM] SteenaJack says: I have very limited text-speak.
[10:08:27 PM] SteenaJack says: XD!
[10:08:34 PM] ladyem42 says: .....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
[10:08:36 PM] ladyem42 says: alk;dj;dlkj!!!
[10:08:44 PM] Dove says: LOL ashdgahjksdgqgahjd!
[10:08:46 PM] Dove says: IGHG
[10:08:48 PM] Dove says: oiuhfghnk
[10:08:49 PM] ladyem42 says: ;lkjfgirjgkdlk!
[10:08:51 PM] ladyem42 says: kjhgfvnjuytfvbnhg
[10:08:52 PM] Dove says: XD
[10:08:55 PM] SteenaJack says: What do they mean?!?!?
[10:08:57 PM] Dove says: Gftujkbnnl?
[10:08:58 PM] SteenaJack says: DX!
[10:08:59 PM] ladyem42 says: lkfjg!
[10:09:02 PM] Dove says: XD
[10:09:05 PM] Dove says: X3
[10:09:08 PM] Dove says: jhuasdhadhakjkl!
[10:09:15 PM] ladyem42 says: ( steena- we're just pushing keys randomly)
[10:09:19 PM] SteenaJack says: XDDD
[10:09:23 PM] SteenaJack says: WERTYUJHGFD
[10:09:24 PM] ladyem42 says: (pretending that we're having a conversation)
[10:09:28 PM] ladyem42 says: ;LKFDGKGLKJFGHDKI!
[10:09:31 PM] SteenaJack says: heiurlyggbvflghsouireo7qrtiufgberkfjvdfvndose79yru3gilrueeu
[10:09:32 PM] ladyem42 says: alkldjfgkjrriflkakjkg
[10:09:34 PM] Dove says: (its a good one apparentlly)
[10:09:39 PM] ladyem42 says: (she gets it!)
[10:09:41 PM] SteenaJack says: e6237tr4toyg9odlrhsgulbidksnx,?
[10:09:41 PM] Dove says: vghg gh gh fgh fg  fgh
[10:09:48 PM] SteenaJack says: euiyghfog ghiufghfkgig foihibnls fdghgeoghidhh!
[10:09:52 PM] ladyem42 says: ghghg? akjtgiksnhig.dngk.
[10:09:58 PM] SteenaJack says: yfgfiughghe7ryt39titffhfoe8gvhfd.lvhfkdsfghdhf.
[10:09:59 PM] Dove says: oikkkjkihjkl?
[10:10:00 PM] Dove says: k,?
[10:10:06 PM] SteenaJack says: ghssg.
[10:10:09 PM] ladyem42 says: awihshacomupitonor, alkeinfidor
[10:10:16 PM] Dove says: hhhhhhhhhhhh.....
[10:10:23 PM] ladyem42 says: aninkapush, aninemminush
[10:10:30 PM] SteenaJack says: asdfghjkjhgfghjhlrkjgflusghjgs,d?!?!?!?!?!?
[10:10:34 PM] SteenaJack says: ghisgiugheghesjbgresu!
[10:10:35 PM] ladyem42 says: calalapinoma pitush!
[10:10:42 PM] SteenaJack says: ghidshglgyseiughflhfosfoigehsigyrghfiugfgbfgyfgifhgiughzjnfghfghf hiugh kdh ilfgfg aufgiu ghfk!!!!!!!!!!!!
[10:10:46 PM] Dove says: nhbguasdeasdbbb. hajkhdaygsda. nnmncikhsda.....
[10:10:49 PM] ladyem42 says: *can rhyme in gibberish*
[10:11:09 PM] SteenaJack says: OOO! wereteg fgfdhgur? weytghfliuvsbdlguba. :3!
[10:11:24 PM] ladyem42 says: alskdjlijkljgta! *bows*
[10:11:31 PM] Dove says: GUYS THIS IS THE BEST CONVERSATION EVER AND NEEDS TO BE ON THE INTERNET ASAP

And it was so!

This is what my friends and I do. ....Yes, this makes sense to us.
Ooooh, my podcast ladies, what would I do without you?

...Make SENSE, probably.
LOVE YA <3

Friday, April 15, 2011

Out on the Catwalk

Although I haven't been writing much other than a scene here or there (blame school/stress), my work-in-progress story Ripper has gone under a lot of change since I first wrote it. Like...a lot. The first time, it was kind of weak, but a good representation of the basic storyline- which I guess is pretty good for a first draft! One of the things that was lacking severly was...characters. Seriously. There were two and a half characters in that story really. Day, Aaron, and Daniel would be the half (he wasn't really that developed at the time. He only counts as half). I'm sorry- but for a murder-mystery-esque thing....there are more people required than that. You know, family members. Co-workers. And now- there are both of those.

I feel kind of lame to be using this...buuuuuuuut....a few days ago a friend of mine pointed out to me a disney princess doll maker. The first thing I do? Make the new Ripper girls in this disney maker. So, ignore the fact that these girls are in desperate need of a cheeseburger, are in the same exact pose, and the fact that I was just too lazy to draw them please XD


Meet Laurel! I really like Laurel. I find her to be particularly interesting because I always knew she was going to be in the story, even though I didn't realize who she was yet. To explain- I first wrote Ripper during NaNoWriMo in 2008. In that month, there were a couple of spontaneous characters that just popped up in one scene, and I knew that they were going to pop up again and be more important characters. Daniel was one of these, and now I couldn't imagine the story without him. (Well...now that he's gone through some character rehashing.) Laurel was the other one. However- she didn't reveal herself to me until well after I had finished it. When the crew was at the headquarters, there was always this girl in the background doing trivial stuff, and yet she refused to show herself to me. It was a fight to find out who she was. But the second she let me know, SHE LET ME KNOW.
Although, I find it interesting that she, as a character, hid from me for so long, because that's part of who she is.


This is Charlie! With my first go at Ripper, I failed to do one thing. I had absolutely failed to include the main character's family. There was a good reason for that- he was a poor orphan boy. He had no family. I then realized "Wait a second. He's orphaned at 11....where the HECK does he live until he goes off to fight crime?" That is a good example at failing to plan. Since then, his story has become a lot more clear. This is Charlie. Aaron's adoptive big sister, and blood sister of his best friend Quinn when their family took the boy in. (...oddly enough. I thought of this BEFORE almost the same thing happened to a close friend of my sisters, and my family took her in.) She is by far the most NORMAL thing in the story, which is very good. I only had one side of society when I wrote it the first time. There were only the pessimists, looking at the bad and focusing on that. And then BAM! Charlie! ...She's honestly probably one of the best things to happen to this story. Even though she's not in it a lot, she's significant.

To conclude...FEMALES...THEY ARE IN RIPPER NOW. I'M SURPRISED.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Further Explanation

To explain my last post..... Here is an illustration.




Dear Steven Moffat- You make us whovians scared of everything. We don't sleep. Ever.

Keep at it, we love you for it.
And hate you at the same time.


Silence will fall.....

PS- I found another one.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

True Fear

As I write, there are two emotions that I think are the most important to convey. Wonder and fear. And fear is probably the hardest of the two to create. There are so many ways that you can go with it, but what really eats at a person's mind? What will mess with their sense of reality, bringing them into the story, and make them question? To me, fear is what makes a bad guy interesting. And a bad guy is what makes the story interesting. After all- the good guy's goal will always be to stop the bad guy. Always. The bad guy is the one driving the story though with what he wants, and how he gets it. So what can be done to make him really memorable?

I have seen one horror movie in my life. It was halloween of my freshman year of high school. I had joined my friends at a party after going to a church event. They had rented the only horror movie left, and they were pretty excited about it. I don't remember the name of it, but apparently it was supposed to be scary. It was about all of these people who had been invited to a "Haunted Mansion" for something. They didn't know this, but it was for an experiment. Some people wanted to know how people would REALLY act if they thought they were in a haunted mansion. Well, surprise surprise when the mansion IS actually haunted....by the children who were murdered by the grandfather of the main character. Quite honestly- I was unimpressed. Very much so. There was only one part that people screamed. And I laughed. And not just a little laugh, but a major LOL sort of thing. It was actually pretty funny, because right after that scary part happened, we paused  the movie to laugh at how silly it was that it was scary and that everyone screamed. Heck- even the two guys screamed. But after they stopped laughing, they paused. And one of the guys spoke up. "....And Emily LAUGHED through that whole thing." They proceeded to chuckle nervously. And then play the movie.

I wasn't scared. The whole movie was so predictable. I mean- people were dying left and right, it was quite honestly boring. I yawned when we suddenly saw faces in the wall moving, when some guy got his head chopped off for doing something stupid, and when any other "scary" thing happened. It's like, they were trying, but it wasn't done in the correct way at all. Or perhaps the wrong elements entirely.

For a while there, I thought that perhaps I wasn't scared easily. I mean, out of the things I've seen, I don't find many things scary or fear inducing. But I have found that my thoughts to be proven wrong. I have found a show that brings up terror that I can not explain. And it comes from a children's show.

Yeah, I'm going to talk about Doctor Who for a little bit. Sorry. I feel like I should be talking more about stuff that actually comes from me...buuuuuuut.....not right now. Because I really find this fascinating.

Since Doctor Who is a television show, there are multiple different writers, and it's pretty easy to tell the difference in the style of some of them. For instance, Russel T Davies used to be the head writer. He wrote brilliant, emotional episodes that made me cry and get attached to characters. However- he has a continuity problem, and many of his episodes don't make much sense ( but are still good! ). My favorite writer though is Steven Moffat. He is the current head writer, and he has messed with my mind like no other story ever has. Why? He has this amazing ability to create fear. Pure, real fear. I look up to this. A lot. The way he does it is incredible. He first takes something simple and innocent, twists it, and then includes the audience in the story. There is no fourth wall. You ARE there.

Children looking for their mother when they are lost. Are you my mummy? Mummy?

Statues that move when they aren't seen. Blink, and you're dead. Don't blink. Do not look away.

Every race has an irrational fear of the dark. But it's not irrational. Count the shadows. If you have more than one- you are their prey. You can not fight them, you can only run.

Silence will fall.


From the recent rumors- the Silence have this ability. ( They are a monster that has not actually appeared in the show yet. But they've been hinted at a lot in the previous season with "Silence will fall" stuff.) The moment you look away from them, you forget you ever saw them. I thought "oh, that's not scary at all!" and I was sad that I accidentally saw that spoiler. But then, I heard of people who went back and re-watched the previous season ( the first season Steven Moffat was the head writer). There are several points in many episodes in which the main characters look at something, and are terrified. They look like they're about to turn and yell for the Doctor to help, and then they look away- and their whole tone changes, and they are back to normal. And the thing that gets me about this- these parts are so out of place in the conversation. They should have been noticeable. When Amy yells "Hey!" to something, she is alone in the Tardis. The audience should have noticed- but we forgot. We forgot that anything weird or out of place ever happened. The Silence has been in the series already- and not one person remembered it.

This way of messing with a person's mind is incredible. A few weeks ago, I saw the words "Don't Blink" on a poster, and ...well, I didn't for a while. If I see a statue- I look at that thing. I count shadows- and when there is a place that has two different light sources, I don't like it when suddenly I have two shadows. This is the case for MOST Doctor Who fans I know. I know it sounds like it's just me and my obsession has gone a little too far that I'm actually scared by these things, but I'm not the only one. I have friends who like Doctor Who, but not nearly as much as me. And yet, if you say "Don't Blink" or "Count the shadows" or any of the other monster catchphrases Moffat has created to them, they jump. It's just Steven Moffat is REALLY GOOD at creating fear.

But why is this? How is he able to do that? I always want to know the why- why has this given such an effect? It's a little bizarre if you think about it.Yet, I still want to know why. And actually- how in this aspect.

The best explanation I can think of is the simplicity. You take a normal thing, and put it just beyond your sight. Take something horrible, something that you don't want to see, and say you have to look at it to survive. There is no blood, no violence, just stuff that is freaking scary.

And out of all of this, I can only think of one thing...... I feel so so sorry for Steven Moffat's children. He says he tries to write things that would scare them. Those poor kids. 8[

I hope to one day be able to do the some thing, gain this sort of talent and create stories like these. I don't think my writing is mature enough yet to do this. But, with practice, perhaps I will get there.


Don't believe that Moffat is that good? Go watch Blink. You can watch it here. The megavideo links are usually the best. I have yet to meet one person who hasn't been scared to blink after watching that episode.



Somewhere Beyond Reality

Doodle time! For this picture we had Anthony Day!


Funny enough- try to compare this to this! This is a picture I drew about 2 and a half years ago. Same character.

It's kind of funny how much an art style can change in a short time.

Win.

Thursday, April 7, 2011

Context

When I was little- I used to think a lot.

Well. That's not to say that I grew up and stopped thinking. But I had some serious questions that I wanted answered when I was young, I remember spending a lot of time thinking about them. ...Like, a LOT.

There was one concept that I never understood- and that was the idea of "other people". This sounds kind of self centered, but I actually thought of it like that. I realized that my whole world was what I saw, and the way I saw the world, anything that wasn't in my eyesight at the moment couldn't exist. I knew that was kind of funny- why wouldn't people exist when they were not with me? I wanted to see people for who they were, but I had a hard time imagining it.

One of the things I used to do then to try to understand this concept was try to imagine myself as "them". Whenever we were in the car, and I could see the people in cars on the other side of the street, I tried to imagine myself as them. I would look, take in what information about those people as they whizzed by, and place myself there. Where were they going? Where had they been? What was their relationship with the person in the passenger seat? This forced me to get a bigger view of the world- and it boggled my brain. I'll admit, I didn't quite understand it for a while.

Although, this trick still helps me today. Like every other person on the planet, I sometimes get into these moods where I am the center of the universe. They're not actually that fun because when I am the center of the universe, things are usually falling apart. When I get to that point, I just look to other people. Wondering where are they going? Where have they been? Why are they doing what they're doing?

It's a good way to get the focus off...well...me. And honestly- it's a welcome relief.

Just a Type of Question

People are interesting creatures. If you just think about the way our minds work- it's incredible. In some way or another, we are all incredibly curious. We want to know more- now whether we want to know more about something academic or something you'd find on the sports channel or in a fashion magazine is irrelevant. We want to know.

In a want to know, we assume that we have questions. We might not know what the questions are- but these questions explain the sort of knowledge that we seek.

I consider myself to be a "why". Everyone is different, there are Whos, Whats, Hows, Whys- and knowing what kind of questions we ask can help us see ourselves better. But I- I'm a Why. This is probably why I am in a major in the social sciences. I want to know why language is the way it is, or why people think the way they think. I want to know motivations and the stories behind them. I want to know the history and the character to explain why someone would do what they did. As a result, I often over analyze things, including in my attempt to try to figure out why I myself have done something.  Yet still- I can't help myself. It's just all so fascinating! I am here merely wanting to know more.

What sort of question are you?